Tumblr backtracked on its horrible update, but I still want to use this site more. I'll cross-post things here, check my reading page, and my inbox some other time.

TFF is next weekend and I have 3 days off in a row today. What I roughly want to do in the coming days:

- I gave my mom some cash to do our laundry while I'm at work today. That's one important thing done.
- I have to go visit my father's house tomorrow because the stupid racist old man can't pick up after himself without a woman around, and his personality is too ugly to remarry a 3rd or 4th time. Many such cases. Hopefully I can get some cash in exchange for doing his chores.
- I want to see if I can transfer the contents of my current Ivy itabag to my new itabag. The con is my coffin shaped itabag was a good gimmick, the pro is the new bag can work as a purse and I want to advertise the most kino FE game as often as I can. I started last night and arranging the keychains on the insert has been hell. I don't want to give up and put them back in the coffin bag, but that's the worst case scenario.
-- (I should get more alien tape, though...)
- Tamers12345 has a new episode on Friday, so ideally I can catch up on the episodes by then. Otherwise I'm probably watching MLP Tales with a Bluesky mutual.
- I need to compile the stuff I want to give away and trade at TFF. A reprint of the stickers I gave out at Harmonycon should come in the mail soon, but I have collectibles and LPS toys I want to trade.
- I need to draw more :(
- My site is currently retired but I have a piece in progress called "Green Man Go Home and the tolerance paradox"... guess what it's about... I considered not writing essays anymore, but being in irl social spaces and Bluesky made me realize I desperately need my own area to air out grey area opinions. Sigh.

I'm kind of divorcing /mlp/ because it invokes the tolerance paradox too hard, but it still has some useful resources... I don't know if I'm ready to commit to getting into a new craft hobby, but I found this plushie tutorial and free pattern:



https://ko-fi.com/s/ee266550ff

I do find Anonfilly cute still... If I ever use this pattern I might make an OC instead.

So is this new Tumblr bullshit that breaks notes and gives comments on reblogs their own separate notes what breaks Tumblr (again)? If a migration happens and sticks, can it please be on a longform website like Dreamwidth (hi) or Pillowfort?

I have issues with Tumblr but making my blog deindexed and turning off reblogs on personal posts led to building a semi-regulated space that other sites don't have, I'd love for a move to here but I am noooooot confident. People still stay on Twitter despite Musk and a built-in revenge porn generator being present. Oh well.

I don't check here often, but. Ever since I attended that room party last month I had a bile fascination with /mlp/ 4chan culture. I legitimately feel like I uncovered a secret society. I'm trying to attempt a piece but this phenomenon was big enough to have several articles written about it. I knew about the Derpibooru conflict during the BLM protests, but there's an academic study about how the /mlp/ community is characterized by insistent emphasis on failed heterosexuality. (Catbox routinely goes up-and-down, so if you can see this I recommend archiving it. This is really, really good.)

/mlp/ (Wikipedia)

Criticism of the My Little Pony: Friendship Is Magic fandom (Wikipedia)

Pony Up Haters: How 4chan Gave Birth to the Bronies

My Little Pony Fans Are Ready to Admit They Have a Nazi Problem

An online battle is raging between Nazis and 'My Little Pony' fans

Pony Nationalism and the Furred Reich: Inside the Alt-Furry's Online Zoo

X-posted thoughts:
3/14

i found out last weekend that anons occasionally post videos taken at their events in various /mlp/ threads and i just watched a video from mare fair of two dudes arm wrestling and one yells “I LOVE FLUTTERSHY!” and the third guy watching chants “MARES! MARES! MARES!” while they’re wrestling
#i found another one from pone voyage where the normie comedian on the cruise comments on the audience's pony plushies #i'm wondering if anyone recorded the “bring back christine” chant because i will never forgive myself for having my phone in my pocket then

i hate being actually autistic and not the quirky kind because i realize for the last month i’ve posting about mlp and anons. i’m aware of how ugly and off-putting it makes me look. i feel like i’ll be put on a blocklist if i post anywhere else that the mare fair animations are highkey brilliant.

oh well. it’ll pass
#it makes me feel like an investigative journalist #i think it was last year i found out about mare fair? and it was via that awful photo lol

i’m too woke for /mlp/ but too chuddy for everywhere else. i’m falling down a /mlp/ rabbit hole for videos people posted of funny irl stuff and i found a dude recording himself making an anonfilly plushie in his room with sewing materials and an embroidery machine. and it’s like ok i don’t think i can commit to sewing but this is actually really useful reference. and then i notice a 3d printed white pony with no visible features and i’m wondering if it’s a canon character or

i don't know what i expected.jpg

i think if it’s not clear i find the fan culture more interesting than the actual cartoon sometimes. it’s like it’s own little world completely divorced from canon. tamers or fallout equestria or people’s OCs or convention mascots barely feel like the same thing to me
#whinny city has really cute mascots that looked like a family but i was told they aren't

Last night is when things get every cursed -_-

Your waifu is WHO?

3/15

oh no…
i think i need to stop combing /mlp/ archives for videos because i found some waifu tulpa thread from last fall and one of the recurring posters is an unironic waifucel for aryanne and claimed to have “married” her at a mare fair panel last year. i don’t think this is trolling. this is some dedicated schizo who even visited germany

wow i totally understand why mare fair is banning all politics this year HOLY SHIT!!!!!!! everything i read about this con is either really crazy and awesome or absolutely horrible

can i please become autistic about something else because i’m seeing things i could’ve gone without knowing
#i used to go on /feg/ when i was suicidal and now i'm on /mlp/ daily

i don’t think drawing the bad pony is automatically cancellable since it depends on context, but uh. i think if you own or create physical merch of it, you’re an absolute fucking weirdo AT BEST. i can’t believe what i’m looking at. do i even tag this post.
#i found a photo of a life sized plushie in someone's room #i swear to god i'm not “”“woke”“” or whatever but this is the craziest “legal” photo i've ever seen #my eyes are wide open i can't believe what i'm seeing #i don't think it's AI or a deepfake. i kind of hope it is but i can't find any metadata #it was apparently posted only once because it has a unique hash #i think i shgould finish my vodka

I am not looking at /mlp/ again for a long while.

But yes. I've been suicidal lately and tend to browse 4chan when I'm suicidal. I'm not sugarcoating anything. Maybe I'll finish my shitty "opinion post" before the con next week?

Enjoy!♥

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(Originally posted March 12th, I've considered cross-posting my shitposts or short form takes here, but I'm too tired and depressed. I tend to see DW as more "dignified" than a crude shitpost space.)

the on-and-off mlp drama between the channers and everyone else is complicated and simple at the same time. it’s not even unique to a 15 year old cartoon lol

1. g4 unfortunately catching the attention of 4chan was why it became popular. /co/ and later /mlp/ built the early foundations and spread it to other platforms before more people caught onto it
2. that being said, spaces grow and evolve, for better or for worse. you can’t project your worldview onto a big tent just like they can’t do that to you
3. you will also sound insane for trying to claim apolitical memes as dogwhistles (ex. the mares chant, snowpity or anonfilly) while not being able to explain why
4. but if your site’s culture is known for being aggressive and offensive, that’s going to put most people off and dislike you
5. the lasting consequences of the ye old tumblrpon war between the libfems and MRAs 13 years ago. you have one side that is “wholesome” but prone to canceling people or moving goal posts (ex. “molestia normalizes rape culture but 50 shades is totally fine”), versus… trolls and racists who have gotten worse post-/pol/ and will also harass people. horseshoe moment 🥁
6. which unfortunately turns into a recruitment tactic. if the inclusive “good guys” are incredibly toxic, why bother being a good guy? /mlp/ are the ones organizing or helping with social events and running websites, and you won’t be canceled for making an off color joke or an opinion. i actually like /mlp/ more when it isn’t racist lol
7. at the same time, /mlp/’s overly permissive culture turns their spaces into a nazi bar. see: aryanne, twitter, /mlpol/, the infamous mare fair photos. that’s the toxic side of “true” tolerance
8. BUT - would designating the people who aren’t complete psychos in that echo chamber and not exposing them to “outsiders” make things worse? what do we do?

the issue is choosing between social surveillance and having no standards. there’s a solution but nobody is going to like or do it. so this will go on.

I'm trying to write an actual blog post about this, but I'm too tired an unmotivated to write. This was mainly inspired by the amount of drama I came home to after Harmonycon last month, since it was first pony con and discovering how it was chuddier than I expected. I had fun with the "melting pot" atmosphere and even the with channers there, but then there were bad actors being racist idiots as expected.

Since this bullet point list is also a rough draft and fetal stage of a take, there's some nuances I left out. Not "all" cons or social events are by /mlp/ people, but some do collaborate or participate and run their own (ex. Mare Fair, Pone Voyage).

I feel like I've discovered a secret society after attending a /mlp/ adjacent room party. I've been debating on "investigating" Mare Fair since this year is finally banning Nazi content and trying to clean up their act, but that would cost roughly ~$600 (rounded up, not counting food) to go by myself lmfao. My credit card can handle it, but I've never traveled alone before...

From literally today:

what i absolutely don't miss about being on neocities constantly was how people constantly shilled forums, journaling sites, or mastodon as a social media alternative with more "freedom"... but interacting with people on these platforms was identical to social media, if not worse. i've withdrawn a lot after a lot of traumatic incidents in the last 2 years but my biggest frustration is "deleting twitter" hasn't done shit when people on "good" websites like forums will misinterpret my words, not actually respond to or engage with what i say, or just give filler responses. geez! is it any wonder AI chat bots are all the rage?

From 1AM this morning (lol)

being drunk is fun when you're amused by every little thing, but then it stops being fun when you remember you're a damaged person with poisoned thoughts and will never have close contacts again

March 5th:

i probably posted this weeks ago but i tried to come back to twitter after the last con to find people and it's not only a literal uphill climb to get noticed by the algo if you have no followers, but i'm literally 3 clicks away from actual nazi rhetoric and i never use nazi to mean "right of center" or "person i disagree with" i'm talking about actual (((them))) dogwhistles and even hammer-and-sickle in bios are reposting actual /pol/ rhetoric lmfao. and even former friends wouldn't believe me i'm still angry i had a leftist friend handwave how too many people i knew went full nazi in the last 3 years with "well they weren't worth knowing anyway". but i don't talk to the company i used to anymore, so whatever. neither were you

March 5th, again:

i do feel some old school tumblr nostalgia despite the dogpiling and callouts that went on. it’s crazy to see the reason why i used the site be near-completely gone now. but i’m also sad how i can’t reconnect with most mutuals or favorite bloggers from a decade+ ago because they either hardblocked me in 2018-2021 or we won’t get along anymore due to major political differences LOL. my mind is tainted is i guess #gamergate + 2016/2020/2024 election + pandemic + russia invading ukraine + oct 7th ruined everything lol #and we're already cycling through this again #i spent my entire adult life playing along with shit for the sake of keeping friends and it hasn't worked #but ~being true to myself~ works even less so what is there even to do

March 1st:

sometimes i get why the median american is like that, the break room TV is playing fox news and there's near constant gambling ads in between news